shojikiyu..

i don't have the most beautiful face
i don't have the most silky hair
i don't have the most pretty eyes
i don't have the smoothest skin
i don't wear 'hot' clothes
i don't have the best attitude
i don't have such a shining personality

i have never done anything to my hair
even make-up i need to unravel its mysteries
my nails are constantly in need of care
i never go out at night
i always have to stay at home
my clothes are in just a shameful state

i know there are other people better than me
much
MUCH
BETTER

so why me?
what do i have?
what do you see in me that's so intriguing?
don't you tend to do comparisons and wish i was better?
don't you wish that i was someone else?

you tell me this, but i believe that
i see things, signs everywhere and interpret it as
that I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU
i never will be..

i know you hope that i will be someone more than i am now
and it tears my heart when i think that i cannot be that person

i don't want to think about this anymore
tears cloud my eyes everytime

this is the remnants of the heartbreak of not-so-long-ago
open your eyes..it's still there
i'm finding it very hard to love myself again