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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

shojikiyu..

i don't have the most beautiful face
i don't have the most silky hair
i don't have the most pretty eyes
i don't have the smoothest skin
i don't wear 'hot' clothes
i don't have the best attitude
i don't have such a shining personality

i have never done anything to my hair
even make-up i need to unravel its mysteries
my nails are constantly in need of care
i never go out at night
i always have to stay at home
my clothes are in just a shameful state

i know there are other people better than me
much
MUCH
BETTER

so why me?
what do i have?
what do you see in me that's so intriguing?
don't you tend to do comparisons and wish i was better?
don't you wish that i was someone else?

you tell me this, but i believe that
i see things, signs everywhere and interpret it as
that I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU
i never will be..

i know you hope that i will be someone more than i am now
and it tears my heart when i think that i cannot be that person

i don't want to think about this anymore
tears cloud my eyes everytime

this is the remnants of the heartbreak of not-so-long-ago
open your eyes..it's still there
i'm finding it very hard to love myself again

7 comments:

I am Karl said...

Vanessa...

dis one is sooo deeppp

ChArL3n3 said...

dear osima, what happened? be strong :D be yourself. don't think so much k?

kyox said...

you have a beautiful smile~~^^

Anonymous said...

i think with this post you have really captured the essence of all the insecurities you have been going through..you should have been this blunt since the heartbreak began..it got so much attention in such a small time right? we just have to wait till the someone this post was meant for reads it..

naddy said...

he/she is freakin stoopid for not seeing how beautiful you are inside out.
ive known you for a long time and trust me, you are GORGEOUS, in every way.
its time for a different outlook in life honey.
dont torment yourself because you know you are worth every second to somebody who sees you, and not only look at you.

Vanny said...

thanks alot nad..

LoveIsPurple said...

i adore your style, vanny~!
btw, u don't need to impress others, as long as u r happy, just get along with it.