you were a real inspiration to many
you epitomized in your works the meaning of 1Malaysia
you help to catapult our country to the top and show its diverse cultures to the world
you were humble, patient, brave and truthful

what are we to do without you now?

you have left us far too soon..

may you rest in peace
always know that you are in our minds and hearts

missing you already..

*Bee*

i know i am always shrouded with insecurity
because of what happened
because of how strongly i feel about you

you think i like feeling like this?
you think i have fun with the bloody thoughts in my head?
you think i like what i did that day?-till you and i were both hurt..

thanks for trusting me
thanks for forgetting it so easily
thanks for being with me all the time
even when i misbehave

we were meant to be intertwined
with love, trust and hope
i'm trying very hard
to let myself let loose
instead of being so uptight and insecure

i love you baybee..
let the whole world know
let them think of this however they want
because what i'm saying here has an underlying meaning
let them look at it literally
only you and me will know what i really mean here

can't wait to see you later
you always make me smile and feel so protected when i'm in your arms
thanks baybee

LOVE YOU

..no matter what they say..

shojikiyu..

i don't have the most beautiful face
i don't have the most silky hair
i don't have the most pretty eyes
i don't have the smoothest skin
i don't wear 'hot' clothes
i don't have the best attitude
i don't have such a shining personality

i have never done anything to my hair
even make-up i need to unravel its mysteries
my nails are constantly in need of care
i never go out at night
i always have to stay at home
my clothes are in just a shameful state

i know there are other people better than me
much
MUCH
BETTER

so why me?
what do i have?
what do you see in me that's so intriguing?
don't you tend to do comparisons and wish i was better?
don't you wish that i was someone else?

you tell me this, but i believe that
i see things, signs everywhere and interpret it as
that I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU
i never will be..

i know you hope that i will be someone more than i am now
and it tears my heart when i think that i cannot be that person

i don't want to think about this anymore
tears cloud my eyes everytime

this is the remnants of the heartbreak of not-so-long-ago
open your eyes..it's still there
i'm finding it very hard to love myself again

Tagged

Here we go..

1. What's your ambition?
Something that was rare..something that not a lot of people had..but was very interested in hotel management.

2. Who is more important for you. friend or boy/girl friend?
Both..my boy friend is my best friend and what is life without friends?

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
only once before...

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Nope. But if the circumstances require me to, even I can surprise myself with my level of confidence.

5. How many babies do you want?
2-3 (;-P)

6. Favourite perfume/fragrance?
Narcisso Rodriguez and Daisy by Marc Jacobs.

7. What's your goal for this year?
to save money to get something big ;-)

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Yes

9. What's a perfect partner to you?
Someone who accepts you for who you are, no matter what, imperfections and all..and someone who makes you feel like you're the only one in their eyes..someone who thinks that you have pure beauty..(excuse my level of emo-ness)..love you baby..

10. What feeling do you love most?
Extreme happiness when you are with the ones you love the most.

11. What is your bad habit?
(tell me..)

12. Is there anything you want to tell people that hate you?
You don't know the real story of my life..whatever you hate about me is your own fault and problem..

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
definitely

14. Describe yourself?
I'm a wallflower. But i will stand out when I need to

15. What do you crave the most currently?
Undisturbed time

16. What's currently on your mind?
sleep

17. What would you really like to do, like right now?
Sleep!

18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
happily married with a job that doesn't suck and bore me to hell..

19. What do you hate the most?
People who think that they are so perfect and that their rules in life and their way of living should be practiced by all.

20. Who else do you want to answer these?
anyone who wants to..

Call me emo..

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We might have took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothing better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missing

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby

comparisons

comparisons are easily made
i like to compare
it's taking over me
you don't think about it

but i do

all the time..

i can't help but make comparisons
about everything from the tip to the tail
it's hard for me to let go of that phase
it tugs at my heart
tearing it slowly

your reaction to it is as though it never happened
you dismiss it everytime i bring it up
i'm jealous, hurt and sometimes wish i wasn't in the picture at all

open up your eyes
see what i am going through
no more drama, please; i've had enough of it
open up your eyes and see how much i am doubting myself

because i am jealous
and i make comparisons..

i need you to show me
i need you to reassure me
i need you to to always be there for me

and not make any comparisons..

i'm trying my best

but it just keeps popping up at unexpected places and times
it~comparisons
it~person

i'm trying my best
it's time you tried your best too

because nothing lasts forever..

materiality

Material things do not do justice to what you and me have
But i thought it's just appropriate to flaunt some of it (~hehe~)
of course you gave me all of it (yes you, the one and only)