bad dream

had a very very bad dream yesterday..all my fears were in it..i guess my brain was telling me that i still had these fears in me..that i still have not let go of them even though i thought i had..the result was a bad day, pretending that i didn't know what was bothering me when i perfectly knew why..how i wish we could talk about it and put a close to it..

Still going strong

the one thing i will always regret

is how i never made myself to like caressing those white keys pieced together by black

"What am I gonna do with you for so long?!"

Seriously?

Thank You for making our life hell

If your life is not as fun and meaningful as ours, then don't come and menyemak, trying to spoil it..



Are you really that dumb to not notice that we are all avoiding you?

Two kisses for you

<3 <3 <3

I am wasting myself

I thought I would never get jealous


oh well..


I thought I was making you feel more welcomed


that backfired..


It has come to a point where everybody's needs are above mine


well done, Vanessa

Vincci is my thing

You think I'm pretty without any make up on


You think I'm funny when I tell the punch line wrong


I know you get me, so I let my walls come down

Sometimes I wish I could say I hate you for all the things you've done to me..and for all its repercussions..


Cuz sometimes the truth hurts..
real bad..



and you can just go anytime you want..
cuz you did mention it more than once..


somebody kill me~

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know,
I know

28/12/2008

I'll Remember to Make Sure that Everything is Laid Out before Presenting It to You

it was too much time together yesterday that made it all too unbearable today..
cuz it only took that one little thing to spark it all off..
just because of that, i was blamed..
but didn't you think that
i've been doing all the thinking for you lately..
that a little slip there was forgivable?

you rush in your judgement of me..
the fact is,
you don't trust me in these matters..
cuz i always don't do things the right way..
the right way= how you want things to be/be done..

so what am i to do now?

i think i may be having a mild hangover

and a ringing sound in my ears..

one of the things i remember most about our night out on the streets yesterday was when he cried during the closing song. he told me he loves me very much. as high as i was, i couldn't stop but shed some tears myself. no guy has ever made me feel so loved and appreciated. he is my everything. he trusts me and is with me through thick and thin.

you looked so good yesterday.

i am blessed to have you as the love of my life.

When I Miss You

I Always Have Spicy Chicken McDeluxe at McDonald's





I Always Eat Our Favourite Spaghetti and Fruit Waffle in KLCC





I Always Get A Book And Sit At The Comics Section To Read It





I Always Listen to Our Song

I Always Notice White Satrias

I Always Watch '24'


Because These Are The Things You Like
And In A Way, It Brings Me Closer To You When We Are Apart

just when i thought everything was ok again

just when i thought i could finally let go of everything in that corner of my heart

it had to happen again..

but i am always there for you

i get upset easily

so it takes time for me to understand what you are trying to tell me

your feelings, thoughts and wants

but when it clicks, i am always there for you

i'm sorry baybee

i'll be a better person

and i love you


i'm a very impossible person, i know

u need time to forget, i need time to be a better person

and sometimes i can be so clueless you feel like banging your head on the wall

but

we're always there for each other right?

i don't want to take us for granted

i hope you will understand
and forgive whatever i said..

Why

is there always a trail of ants going into the girls' toilet?



do we always fall asleep during lectures?


is everyone aiming for perfection when we are all
special in our own way?

am i always doubting myself?

I am good enough
smart enough
beautiful enough
...
...
...
thanks for showing me

Families

are meant to stick together

something so sacred to me right now

disappointment fails me
in my bid to explain to you how i feel

because families are meant to stick together
no one gets left behind

i know i haven't been playing my part

but please

lets just stop all of this

and shatter the glass of pride blocking us all from each other
...
...
...
i just want to be emancipated from all of this

I Know

I know you had a decision to make
cuz she treated you exceptionally well
and i was just a not so pretty gal
she was beautiful
and i didn't know how to treat you right
she knew how to sweet talk you
but i didn't
instead
i just believed in true love

i know you had a decision to make
cuz she was the sociable and out-going one
with lots of friends
while i just sat in my corner

it was a long time ago you said
how i wish that was true
even now you still lie to me
cuz if it was a long time ago
why didn't i see it that day when all was found out?

i know you had a decision to make
so why choose me
if all the right directions pointed to her?

*Remember*

when we used to walk back to our hostels everyday*



when everyone thought that i was jealous because I wasn't chosen to be your 'Queen'*




the crazy things we always do in bookshops*



when we took your car for its very first spin*



when we used to go to jusco cuz we did not want to hang out in college*



when we always gave the correct answers in class*



when i missed you so much*

****

Oh Well~

screw the finding of leadership articles, reading of assessment notes and other nonsensical assignments now..

my late ah kong, whenever he bought groceries, would write the date he purchased those items and paste them onto the items. all the jam bottles, margarine tubs, sesame seed oil bottles and shampoos had dates stuck on them.

~kinda makes sense now the logic of doing that~




Aamir Khan looks good in his latest movie..

generally, all actors who have 'khan' in their names look good~ (except shah rukh khan-he's too commercialized)




a guy wrote in the papers that all cinemas in malaysia should have a 5min interval during shows (just like what they are doing in India now) so that audiences can have a toilet break or stretch their bodies and also to avoid the occurence of deep-vein trombosis (tabib you mr. newspaper article).

i think i am in love with the indian culture, esp the punjabi one~ u noe why~

have we really gained independence when we behave like this?

its the day after our country's independence but already there is a story that makes me wonder whether we were really ready for it. i read an article on

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090830/tap-malaysia-religion-islam
-hinduism-0193655.html

and it just made me shake my head..why would people do such things?
where is the 1malaysia concept that has been and is continuously being promoted by the government? haven't they had enough time to absorb the fact that we are all Malaysians even though we have different races and religions. we shouldn't even be saying we have different races and religions anymore. so what if we have different races and religions. we are still Malaysians and should be protecting each other, not hurting one another. Have you been looking at your MyKads lately? under the title warganegara? Malaysian.i know how it feels like to be discriminated upon..you know who i mix with..and it hurts let me tell you that, to not be accepted by everyone. even mixed-race relationships shouldn't be frowned upon. this is where we are unique, this is where we are all Malaysians.

but then again, this is my own personal opinion..